Kila and Rob;
I consider you both mature friends who are sound, reflective thinkers. Here is something I would like to hear your ruminations on, by Paul Vischer, inventor of Veggie Tales. He was responding to a question in an interview on Christianity Today website, "What are you dreaming about now for the future?" He answered...
"The emotional longings we attach to our "dreams" often say more about the unmet needs of our childhoods than God's calling on our lives."
Wow. That resonated me with me as i thought about my "missionary" expereince in Malawi years ago. I realized that my "dream" at that time definitely was more about my emotional needs than it was about God and a vision for his work in the world. Can you offer me some of your thoughts?